I have our song on repeat.
Well its not really our song,
More of a song that reminds me of us.
Even though there was never an us…
It’s pathetic that I am writing this
Where you will never see it,
Then in a box where I can press send
& you see it instantly.
Probably because I am scared.
Scared of the rejection,
Mostly scared that I will have to get over you.
My romantic interests still revolve around you.
And for the life of me I don’t understand why.
Is it your ability to make me laugh,
Or the fact I get lost in your eyes?
Its my made up of version of you.
The one that held me that night.
And made me blush and feel special.
I think its because that i don’t see you a lot anymore.
So my mind starts to create these versions of you.
In my mind they cared about me,
And how I felt.
But I see you in real life and,
The real you shows.
And it just breaks my heart.
Because i know you can be better.
but i cant show you.
But I hope and I pray,
That one night,
You look in the mirror ,
And you utter.
“What have I become”.