We went on a drive tonight.
I did most of the talking.
Gosh I would not shut up.
To a normal person I just seem to be talkative.
Little does he know he makes me so nervous,
I didn’t want the silence to fill the car.
I love silence.
I want to be able to sit with him,
Without a word needing to be said.
Yes he isn’t a very open person.
Making the conversation hard.
But I’m trying.
Trying to get past all of the walls he has built.
I want him to see that all I want is to care for him.
I want him to know he always has someone by his side.
That there is always someone rooting for him.
That’s all I have ever wanted for all of my boys.
But the boys before him didn’t deserve my care.
But I feel like he needs it.
He might not now know.
But he will realize that all I want is his happiness.
While we were talking.
I was asking about his life,
Just in general and he said he was fine.
But I feel like he is not content with just fine.
Who wouldn’t want to be extraordinary?
What he doesn’t know is that alone,
We are ordinary.
We could conquer the world.